Turtles don’t move slow, no. One step is equivalent to 50 miles in the fairy realms. Like many species here on Earth, turtle came up to the surface from “the below”. We will witness many more to come and dance with us among the new Sun. Remember, there are many worlds within just this one.
…and I’m not talking about the truth you think is true, true, true from something you heard outside of yourself. Their truth maybe true, but most likely it is not. Why? Because, you read some book written by a yogi or “realized master”, or attend a seminar or workshop, or a church that is only there to control your mind and emotions, and make you feel guilty, like you're actually important enough to go to a place called heaven or hell, or somewhere in between (and btw, the service sucks in all those places), and then go and repeat it like it's yours, like it actually helped your psychosis and delusions of grandeur, then you go out into the world and experience the truth of this plastic concrete paved place and drop down a few levels in your consciousness, take on a little more guilt added to what you already hid very well and thought you cleansed from your fragile eggshell mind, and guaranteed if you met any of your yogi or priestess idols you would not want to spend more than a minute with those assholes. Relationships don’t need to work, and compassion? There is no business for that in the coming days… just as there will be no such thing as a healer in the future. So, stop trying to please everyone, because you can’t, and well it’s a waste of… oh fuck. Forget it. The truth business is a mean business, certainly not for the light-hearted.
America, and much of the Western World suffer with a sickness towards “The Almighty Dollar”. It has become the new church and is much popular than any Christian Sect. Look at the Vatican. It’s a bank in its very nature. Sell the Vatican, feed the hungry. In fact, most of the poverty of the world could dissolve overnight by selling this “Real”-estate. The masses cannot see clearly because they have dollar signs in their eyes, and all the stuff they can get beyond the imagination from the comfortable corporatocracy. They are hypnotized by things beyond their immediate needs, and in a pleasure trance of stolen treasure. Most of this treasure is made of plastics, or materials that harm that natural world, and so everyone else and all who exist here suffers greatly because of this. Yes it is changing, but remember this… Things are getting better and worse at the same time.
In the late 1800’s the supreme court of the United States approved the corporations request to obtain a charter to sell goods and services. It was a like a “domino effect” and the corporate camp set up overnight, paved the land, and the companies, banks, government, and military took over (the power of eminent domain). The people no longer have any rights beyond their immediate breath, and now this is in question.
There is this insatiable hunger to find more and more ways to be comfortable. We live in a dimension, and a planet that is not set up to sustain this way of living. We are not meant to live the way most American’s desire to live, and it seems like they have the rest of world trying to meet this standard. Most of the resources reside in the United States, so it’s tempting, but it’s not sustainable.
At the individual level we are highly influenced by each other. We always crave more stuff to fancy up our “zoo cages” or homes, and never satisfied. It’s a hunger that will never go away. It’s like we are much like the canine group, always hungry for the next best thing. Humans are everywhere. This planet has become man-made, and because of our technology and our false sense of security we travel all over the place without much regard to the environment. That’s great that people have the freedom to do this, but it takes much responsibility of the individual to look around and see there are billions of people who have a desire to live like kings and queens. What’s up with all the traveling going on? Because we can jump into an airplane and go wherever we desire? Why aren’t people keeping this in check? Take what you need, leave the rest. Whatever happened to this common sense?
Those who have made the choice to awaken to their true selves have crossed the threshold into the “age of vulnerability”. Time to get used to this, because there is no ending of this age. No one will be left behind with the new frequencies available now on the planet, but the status quo is being tested like they have never witnessed before. So, we are all in this boat together without the paddles we thought could move us through these times.
So then, it brings us back to the abundance topic… Abundance is who we are, Yes. Just as time and space is not something outside of ourselves. I always tell people who struggle with obtaining any amount of money, if you have $1 you have enough (perhaps there is a reason why the money is not there, maybe it might bring you to your death? Or someone else?) If you have $1,000,000,000 you have enough (perhaps you like to make money just to make money. It’s not real anyway and cannot be taken with you when you die). Warren Buffet said it the best, “when people get greedy, be fearful. When people are fearful, get greedy. There is much truth beyond the first take of this statement. I have lived it, know this very well from direct experience.
It’s time to wake up from the trance. It’s not like there are many choices anyway, look around. If you haven’t noticed that there is a major shift in consciousness going on, time will bring you to this realization. There is a shamanic message that the Auchar people of the Amazon want the world to know... "The world is as we dream it", and it is time to change the nightmare into a beautiful dream. Or perhaps, you personally will not desire to go any further on a planet that is now at 5th dimensional frequency and check out. There is no such thing as death anyway, so we will all see you when we get there. If you choose to stay, that’s why I am here. I offer potent guidance for the days ahead of us. Also, for those who are suffering from losing a loved one to suicide, or any traumatic event. Visit my healing/life-coaching services page: http://www.murielshickman.com/healing-services
We all have an energetic field or aura around our physical body, which is comprised of several energetic fields that correspond to our emotional, mental, and spiritual aspects. If you extend your arms all the way out around your physical body and turn your palms in facing you, that is where you end, and the world begins. This is your energetic boundary. You can do this exercise with both arms extended out and move them around your body in either direction to get a feel for this. It goes above your head and a little below the feet too. Now, when you go out into the world this awareness of your boundaries is the utmost importance for not only the health and well-being of yourself, but the entire planet and many worlds that exist here.
When you are sharing space with someone or vice-versa, you can simply move your energetic field in closer to your physical body. In fact, you can move it in to the point where you can slip a piece of paper between your energy field and the person getting closer to you. This is still your space, and a boundary of where your field ends, and the world begins. It's all in the awareness.
Light pollution was a big issue with people until the cities expanded into metro-poles (and it's as if no one talks about it anymore). We not only have that problem but are contending to sound pollution as well. As if one person’s boundaries have extended out and reaches over the entire planet without anyone keeping this in check. Now, multiply that by seven billion people. I know here in America people suffer greatly with overextending their boundaries. They blare loud music out their car windows, like it's part of their image, and have no volume gauge when speaking. The list goes on.
So, one of the biggest issues with humanity is not having awareness of energetic boundaries. Not only does this create havoc for us, but all other species that we share this space with. The daily news is fueled by those who mistreat others by breaking these boundaries and taking what is not theirs. Sexual abuse, especially involving woman, children, homosexual and transgender individuals, is growing more intense every day. Many people don't feel comfortable talking about it. They simply try to shove it under the rug as if nothing is happening.
The planet will become a much more quiet, peaceful, and gentle place to exist when humanity has a general understanding of where they end, and the world begins. Let us start with ourselves, and make sure this is one of the first things we teach our children when they become old enough to understand.
So, I guess that's it...once you die before you die you realize nobody else dies, because no one ever truly does. There is no such thing as death, and it's no longer sad anymore. This is one way that you become different from many people because you may feel the sadness for a brief period, but it doesn't last too long. Your knowing kicks in, you realize this once the veil of grief is lifted, and you go into the remembering that no one ever dies.
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Energy is not something outside of the self, and the universe does not request one to acquire it. There is a common belief among the masses that if you do something right or wrong the universe (or God, or…) is watching and will act accordingly (even those who do not have any religious or spiritual beliefs. Somehow, they took this on). There is a general misunderstanding of the ancient Sanskrit word "karma", which means one’s actions, and that is all. There is no good or bad here. When the Beatles wrote their famous song "We All Shine On", the term "instant karma" was immediately spread throughout mass consciousness and assisted in redefining this word. It was totally misunderstood. People do very well at repeating what they hear from outside of themselves, and then owning it as if it was theirs. Any belief is limiting. Why? Because it came from outside the self. If and only if one checks in with themselves and it rings true, then it is. There is a universal truth, but one must find it within their own confine. We are physical beings, and so we move, and act.
We are born as shiny “God” specks, with our energy intact, twinkling in our “I Am-ness”, and knowing that we are everything (yet, nothing). Then, we begin to learn the world. Our mother and father or caretaker then tells us what is good and what is bad, and our peers reinforce it. There is an immediate energetic manipulation and controlling of the mind that takes place for one to be a good standing world citizen. So, I can hear the questions coming up at this point. That’s great Muriel, but there must be order. People can’t just go around killing, raping, and acting like they own this place and then nothing happens to them. If you look deeper into what was just said, there is an issue with power and control. Why are there so many prisons, mental institutions, and countless orderly ways to control those who are “out of line”? Because, we don’t know what to do with chaos. And has this worked very well? Not so much. So, then what are we going to do as we watch the daily news and the world is getting more and more chaotically intense as people act out this very thing that cannot be controlled? In fact, the more control presents itself, the more it’s acted out. There is a tango of power and control that takes place between those who create and maintain the laws, and the outlawed. Do you see? It’s a nice little wheel that spins 24 hours a day nonstop.
You hear the famous quote by Einstein floating around social media all the time these days, “We cannot solve our problems with the same level of thinking that created them.” Yet, there is this constant perpetual motion of the same old ways, the same old news, same, same… with very little change. Media is powered by the reactions from the masses, you and I. But what if it’s not the laws that need changing? What if (and I love to play the “what if” game), it’s the individual that needs to go within, and let themselves experience the “dark night of the soul”?
What sparked me to write this musing today had nothing to do with what was mentioned above. In fact, when my fingers began to type these words what I originally wanted to say changed. Now, to get to the original intention.
When we lose someone close to us this is a sad and sometimes tragic experience. Mostly because we will never see them again (at least in this lifetime as how they were in their physical form as that person), but what is taking place on an energetic level is the fact they are taking their energy back from everyone they shared it with. Usually this takes place when we die, not when we are still living. Why? Because most people do not understand how energy works and serves the individual. If one dies before they die, meaning they discovered their inner “Holy Grail”, then the process of taking one’s energy back takes place while they are still alive. We all can do this at any time. How much of your energy is scattered or splattered in places where you left it? How many people have tried to take your energy without much success? Why? Because it’s yours and does not belong to anyone else.
Energy feeding is a common epidemic, and it’s popular these days especially with social media. Why? Because many people do not like themselves and need reinforcement from others to tell them if they are good, or bad. Those who are famous feed from outside, but it’s a temporary fix. Like the heroin addict. It makes you wonder what happens to the famous person in that moment of death? Perhaps they already began the process of taking their energy back. I know this energetic awareness from being a musical performer most of my life. The crowd makes the performance. Other than that, it’s merely a private practice session. Many are purging what no longer belongs within their energetics because it truly cannot stay if the choice is to keep living on a planet whose frequency is now radiating self-love or well-being. It is now the utmost importance to close this feedback loop. There is nothing wrong with having friends and others tell you if they like you or not, but do you see the point here? You don’t need any outside input when you are comfortable in your own skin, the kingdom within. Gather up your energy. It’s yours, and you will see how it begins to serve you in ways unimaginable.
We all have a unique soul voice. No one is better than another. For some reason there is whole LOT of energy feeding going on with those who “speak their truth” and their “followers”. Crazy amount of idolizing. People are getting addicted to their “likes”. You may word it just so, fancy it up, and put in bit of soft, pretty little words to keep them coming, and sit on facebook most hours of the day. Why do you need followers? and why do you need to follow? I immediately took that off my profile at the very beginning. We all use this platform for our own reasons, I take mine very serious.
I have nothing to prove in this last lifetime of mine on Earth. There is whole lot of rubbing up against with folks who have already crossed the bridge into embodied enlightenment, and those who are on the bridge as assistants for those who are just embarking or will in the future. That is where I stand. I do offer my services lightly, because I have to. It’s extremely sensitive work that I do, and I love it! I would do nothing else, well… besides writing my books and playing my music.
I understand that once you say “I Am that I Am” you no longer need any assistance outside of the self. I tread lightly with these folks, God forbid. But, if would be nice once you get “there”, know there are well over 7 billion people that could use this assistance. No one heals anyone. If you are good at what you do, you simply pull everything from the individual and they ultimately heal themselves. They just required some assistance. Very simple.
Every single person on this planet will hit enlightenment. That is the mission. Remember, we fell hard in consciousness and those like myself who chose to give of themselves in this way stay on a bridge until all come into knowing. The new Bodhisattva, if you will? At the same time, I’m not a savior, or sacrificing myself for a cause. And this whole “truth” thing? Really? There is universal truth folks. (dropping the ball here, feels good)
I always liked what our dear comedic friend George Carlin once said, “It’s all bullshit, and it’s bad for you”. Stop with the hovering, better than shit… it’s a turnoff. Oh, and God forbid if you speak like I’m doing right now. The assumptions of me being angry are through the roof, hahahahahaha!
May this post be an inspiration for others who have been holding back from speaking like I am right now, because of the possibility of being judged by their colleagues or anyone else for being blunt, or angry, or anything else than “light and love”. Speak your heart. This is mine.
I always have an enjoyable conversation with my Mother when we talk about Jeshua (or Jesus as most people know him as), and what he was truly doing about 2000 years ago before they made religion out of him. “You will do greater things than I”, he said. “Muriel, you are doing just that, keep going, I love you”, he also said recently. There will be a small amount of people who will have the knowing, and you will accomplish what you have set out to do. Bye and bye...
One of the recent changes in my healing services that I provide went beyond the beyond. I started out providing only Shamanic healing's, but this expanded as I came into my embodied enlightenment. Now, part of the activation work that I do is helping to assist those into their remembering or knowing of who they truly are. Jeshua was not going to come back as one man. No. There are many, and they are extensions of this ascended master (like the Canine group for instance, no name, just canine. Your dog has no name only when the human names her), and there are many whom walk the Earth with us in this present day. Some know who they are (have known since they were young), some have an inkling (but are hesitant to even try to comprehend this because most people in the past whom have claimed themselves as Jesus were placed into mental institutions or laughed at, or shot, or hung, etc.) So, when I work with my clients it’s imperative that they throw out the concept of being Jesus, because creation has expanded much since the time of his resurrection, there is no point with this name. I call this type of work “What’s your blueprint?”
One truth turned into a mental concept, and so must be lived to see the bigger picture. Jeshua, the one of many teachers and prophets, came and showed himself and they made him into a God. He was a teacher, a sage. He was open to secret knowledge (Gospel of Thomas-Gnostics) and gave this knowing… “I’ve been with you the whole time and you don’t even know who I am.” He said. The Catholic church and many others did not buy into this and created a doctrine and dogma that had no relation of Jesus as a Jew. Father, Son, And Holy Spirit (Trinity) = God Head, which is only a conception created after he died. He was a teacher of the people.
In their own way everyone will find the truth. But what is the truth? Every individual must meet the truth in their walk, and this is a hard walk… but once found, this is their enlightenment. One truth but must find within one’s own confine. Jeshua says the Corporatocracy, the “All mighty dollar” is now the new church.
Please, do not hesitate to send me a private message if you would like a one on one conversation about any of the content here. I prefer to not have a "matching session", if you will in the comment area of this post. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this, and many blessings on your own personal journey inward.
Someone recently commented to me that if a person claims they are a Master, they truly are not a Master. And the reasoning they say behind it is simple. If one says it about themselves that is like the old saying ‘if you claim to be a wise man than you truly don’t know’ something along the lines like that. However, creation expanded to a degree still unknown to the common person. Humanity is still acted out the old energies of “you can’t do this, or you can’t say that because it’s all ego if you do’ and on and on this goes. I hate to burst some people’s bubbles (or maybe I do a little ), but creation went from 2 (duality) to 4 (the quad) (if you need more explanations on this send me a private message), and with this expansion the Master is now working in cohesion with their human aspects. And as of late, we are experiencing such a degree of this that, that’s even gone topsy turvy. The ‘soul voice’ or Master is now on the front lines and the human is taking a back seat. Not a back seat as in being silenced or shunned, but finally cooperating with it’s divinity. Finally going full strait ahead with all it’s humanness with no denial what so ever. Finally acknowledging ones own humanity with all the “imperfections” annoyances, pains, lacks, never getting it right, and so on. Any questions?
...and so it is true that Adamus, Kuthumi, Metatron, the Archangels have been working closely lately and with us and many of the celestials, there has been something different happening than anything else we have personally and collectively experienced.
Good deep breath,
And let it fully out on the out breath.
It may not be noticeable until it is. Take this time for yourself if you haven't recently. The integration of the "I Am" and the human has occurred. No more soul voice and then separately a brain speaking, it is all one voice, like a soft wind blowing across a vast open space. It can be a bit unsettling at first because of the awareness of the distance between thoughts (just as you view a fractal you are able to do with your thoughts. The story lines are there, and many go on for eternity, but all are interconnected just the same).
A keen sense of being present in a body and the incoming sensuality that most understand as a "kundalini rising" is occurring at a fast rate. Many can mistake this for sexual energies and that is because it's such a closely related energetic network. Those whom have done their spiritual work understand the dynamics that occur with imbalanced sexual energies, energy feeding, and the lack of energetic boundaries. If awareness is not present this type of awakening can also wreak havoc with the systems especially the nervous system and the adrenals.
Time is you. Take diligent care of yourself as your kindness and warmth helps assist others with this knowing during this time of great change.
May this day bring you everything for your greater good--Start freshly innocent.
I have had enough people in recent days ask me about my awareness of my multidimensionality, what it means, and how all this works. I would like to take a moment to show you. May this image and description open up some doorways.
The Visica Piscis is a sacred geometrical shape that I feel best describes how all of this works in cohesion. Starting from myself (the human) the circle begins locally (this is the center point, me. This is where the questions come from that the outer circles give answers to), then the second circle out are all my aspects, which for the most part are local in vicinity (this is the collective soul voice that knows without knowing, only answers) This is how I know the difference between the voices of the outer and inner circles. The last circle out are the Archangels, Ascended Masters, and infinite beings of light (they are not local in vicinity, they are light vibration, frequency of non-duality). All together, makes up the great ‘I Am’. So, when you see the words “I Am that I Am” may this help you to better understand.
All of this and more will be in greater detail in my upcoming book, ‘Soul Ship’.
Many years ago my lovely teacher, Jim Self of Mastering Alchemy said the above statement when I was moving into becoming a “healer” and creating an entire business out of it. There is no such thing as a healer in the future? Huh? So, if you could imagine when he said those words the unknown that was stirred from inside myself and all kinds of feelings, and some fear too. (Thank you for reading on…)
So, if this is the case why am I spending all my precious time enhancing my healing practice if there is no future for this? I thoroughly understand it is helping others right now, (but)…Before I could even finish the question a voice came from inside and said, “Keep going”.
The shift in consciousness is moving things fast, and yes people are beginning to wake up and have their own personal self-realizations (or enlightenment), and once this realization occurs we begin to heal from the inside out. (Hold your hand out and the apple will appear). It’s as simple as a shift in perception. However, there will be many who still need your lightness of heart and healing hands for many decades to come, that too is shifting, but for now… Many will still need you.
This is what it means to be on “The Bridge” between the old world and the new world. And it’s changing faster than the speed of light!
Every day I take action to help change this world for future generations by working diligently with my own business at Healingnow. I assist those who require healing or activation while plugging away and writing my books (Among many other crazy ventures I find myself in). I work alone and live out on the wild windy Colorado Prairie, and do not see people very often, except when I have to see a client for a bodywork session. It’s a double edged sword, because it can be lonely at times, but having space away from the masses helps me significantly for the work that I do. I don’t have many possessions, or a fancy house, nor a bank account, but what I need comes to me everyday. I have found the balance between offering free services/products and charging for them. Although, some folks still come to me with an expectation of saving them with my ‘masterly’ skills and metaphorically wanting shoes at a shoe store without having to pay for them. A healing business is a tricky one to go at, and I gave up everything that I had including that steady job and “for sure paycheck” and “retirement” to be able to be here on a daily basis. I have been going strong for over 2 years now. Aho!
The Healer or Shaman of a community was taken care of by the community, but we are now all situated around every city on the planet, and unless the shaman has inherited some money we too need to make a living. Now, through knowing and understanding manifestation, the money comes and will continue to come in magical ways. Some days are better than others, but the passion and focused intention that i have to make this work surpasses any strengths I have seen thus far. Are there times when my human still questions if it is going to work out? You betcha. I have had an abundance of time on my hands to not only understand the mechanics behind manifestation, but also to understand what abundance truly means. I looked at what I had in my hands and sadly at first I saw nothing. Then, I saw the abundance of time that comes with having nothing, and realized I have everything.
What is it that one person can do when they have all the time in the world, not much money, but enough resources to make a change? I am here on a bridge between the old world and the new world, and I assist those who are ready to go beyond the beyond. I am also a part in one of the biggest light networks that has ever been created on planet Earth, and together we are anchoring in the new energies and a common knowing of our divine consciousness for future generations to come.
Am I happy and love what I do, you betcha!
Muriel (Strong Heart)
An amazing shift occurs when embodying a feeling of gratitude every day. It is a sure way to stay internally balanced. The daily noise and outward human projections can easily distract oneself from focusing from the inside out. Most of what goes on in the world everyday has very little to do with you (and what i mean by that is either you are here to engage in the noise for whatever interests you or perhaps you have come to learn something from such events, or you have come to the knowing that you are a Merlin in your own right and can consciously change external events by being in a constant state of gratitude). It is so important during these days of momentous change in human consciousness and Earth changes to spend your thoughts and energy wisely. Change rooms for a day in your mind and you will see there are infinite ways to be grateful for everything and everybody.
I am in deep gratitude to simply be able to express these words, and another blessings for them to be received from you. My fingers and body are healthy enough to type these words and to read them, I am grateful, As I breath in and out, I am in gratitude for the life breath that breaths through me, and in my awareness, I smile and feel this gratitude in my body with a knowing of the interconnections with all life on Earth and all of creation within every cell of my beautiful being. I have water and food to eat today, I am grateful. I know that love makes up all the ingredients and what holds the glue of daily life together. Again, I am grateful.
Space opens within and expands out. I am the multiverse, not just a-part. All the external happens have shifted during the creation of this post simply by being conscious of being conscious.
I am that I am, a creator being embracing the gift of this awareness. This act of self-love and gratitude is saving humanity and assisting with all life here on Earth, all worlds, and all sentient beings.
Thank you dearest ones ~Muriel
Some people ask me how I do my work, and it is not a simple answer, that’s for sure. However, one thing I do emphasize when describing how I go about performing the healing sessions or “Quantum Mechanical Operations” is that I play with the Rays of Creation. I work with the Archangels. It is all about frequency and vibration, and working with source light. It truly goes beyond dimensions, but to satisfy that domain, it works on a 5th dimensional level and beyond. Beyond time and space… beyond the mental mind and gravity of mass consciousness… you will find me (for a second, haha!)
Working with colors in the physical body using the Rays of Creation:
If I am working on a person, I ask where in the body they feel or sense what they are distressed about or having pain. Most folks immediately can point out where in the body they sense this (usually it is one, two or more spots throughout the body), and then describe one or more colors that are there in those areas (if it is related to the blood, it’s the entire body). I work with the person to assist in moving the colors to where they belong in the body (as i work within the quantum field I can sense where the colors need to go for balancing). They can see the colors in their “minds eye” moving to those locations. We take a few good deep breaths together and release. This is only one technique of many that I use during a session, but potent as it continues to do its work out of time and space.
If you would like to play check out my website for more information, rates, and perhaps schedule a session. (I work with you wherever you are located)
The mind does a good job at conceptualizing what enlightenment looks like or even the process of the days leading up to the event horizon within the self. Since the dawning of the great awakening of human consciousness there have been countless stories passed down from those who have realized themselves. They are nice stories to read, but that is exactly what they are, stories. Someone else’s experiences. The wisdom has and continues to provide some guidance for those who are seeking, but nothing will prepare one for their own personal realization, or their very own “21 days of hell”. That fortnight plus some doesn’t just come once. The first time around one will learn and remember to make friends with this period of detoxification and integration going forward. What are the 21 days of hell? Le me explain…
When one has sought out all that can be learned from the outside world; when one has surrendered into the opening of the inner world without shutting down or closing off to the self- the first experience of this intense period of detox begins. At this point it is understood that the journey of enlightenment is not about the fulfillment of joy & happiness and coming into the final product or version of the self. It is understood there is no more working it out or fixing the self. This is the ultimate surrender. But still, nothing can prepare one for this detox.
During the first few days and nights the purging begins- profuse sweating, aches & pains, a sort of flu that is not the flu and the only thing that can be done is fully embrace the experience with all the bodies (mental, emotional, physical) out of balance. All the stored wisdom comes out now, and this too shall pass is now thoroughly understood. Nothing outside the self will help. There are no angels, guides, or ancestors that are going to come to the rescue, no superman, and certainly no God. No one, but simply YOU. Now the loneliness comes creeping up. No one is going to understand your craziness. Now you hear voices or the voice in your head (that was always only in your head) is no longer familiar. You think you are going crazy, and in a sense you are. That’s the good news. You have finally accepted that you have always been enlightened, you merely chose not to realize until now. This is the point of no return.
Day after day you continue to experience an intense mental, emotional, and physical breakdown with all its hellish pleasures along with what I call “cracking open”. This step in the realization process is similar to the frying of an egg. Once the egg has left its shell it can no longer be placed back into the shell ever again. So now you have intense mental, emotional, and physical pain, you are losing your mind, you have no one to talk to, and you are completely aware there is no going back to how it was before. What to do? You know that you know. Surrender.
There is no doctor, no prescriptions, no pleasure, nothing outside to help you now. So you use your tools. You take that good deep breath in and let it out on the exhale, ahhhhh. Your breath is now your best friend.
The experience eventually passes with time and you feel you can begin to move forward again. You will recognize it when it finally comes to pass, but know that the experience will come again, bye and bye. But the next time, you will know what is happening. You will be fully conscious. The 21 days of hell or the full thrust forward into self realization will only come once. After that, you will consciously call in the experience when needed. It will no longer be known as a living hell, but merely a period of detox and expansion. This my friend will continue for eternity.
Many blessings on your journey into the darkness and the lightness of all that you are!
(I honor you for the journey, no matter where you are)
I had my whole life planned out. It was the early 1990's and I knew my talent and was confident to where I was going after high school, at least that's what I thought. I didn't need to get a regular full-time job until I was 24 years old because my band was set to go places, and we were making progress. However, as life tends to go everything changes after a while, but it was changing fast at this point. Every attempt at employment was dissatisfying. I had to find odd office or warehouse jobs that I could do. There was an ongoing battle inside myself as to where my true place was in life.
At 25, I took a trip across the country from my home state of Massachusetts and stayed in Colorado for a while. This was my first attempt at making it on my own with my creativity. It was a short stay as I felt beckoned to get back with my husband and family again. I wrote more songs, played gigs, and continued to work odd jobs; But, there was that ongoing feeling of not being in the right place. In late spring of 2002, I got on a plane to Colorado with $40 in my pocket, stayed with some friends, applied to a job, and started work two weeks later. I was finally in the right place. It took several months to get my husband and furry friends to make the move, but they did it and we never looked back.
It took several years to adjust to a new living situation, away from family and friends and what I knew my entire life. I literally had to say goodbye. Although I continued to write songs and play some gigs when they became available, it was not like it was my old life again. Things were changing like I had never experienced before. I found myself working odd jobs again until I finally settled down to working a full time corporate job in 2004. I was not happy. That feeling of not being in the right place began to creep up again, but this time I was away from home, family, and friends. I was determined to make it happen.
I returned to college and stayed there for four years while working at a corporate job. I was busy all the time while dealing with my entire being changing. It was taking a toll on my mind, body, and spirit. At least, that is what I thought the cause was at the time. Little did I know that I was beginning a full throttle push towards embodied enlightenment. This is when I began to meditate and become familiar with the eastern philosophies and healing arts. It was all preparing me for full embodiment.
I left my job in early 2009 because of the injustices I was witnessing all around me. Corporate America was moving overseas, and we were losing our jobs. I saw my friends/work mates laid off one by one. This was the same time my Mother was having a bout with depression, so I decided to use my student loan money and a credit card and ventured my way back to Massachusetts. Little did I know, this was the last time I would see my brother Aaron alive. After I graduated in May 2009, I had plans to attend the University of Colorado for a degree in Geography/Environmental Studies & Sustainable Living, but in mid-August 2009 I had to travel back to bury my brother. My life changed completely after that.
I had to move through the mourning process and continue on with my life like most folks do when they lose someone they love. After returning to Colorado, I continue to search for employment, but I was having no luck. In 2010 I finally found a job that would utilize my Natural Resource degree that I worked so hard for, finally. I worked a few jobs within that arena while going deeper into the healing arts and continuing with creating my music.
The roller coaster continued after mid-Summer of 2012. The job that I finally thought would be the one, laid me off. I was back to square one again. What was I to do? I spent the following months searching for employment while playing my music. The months turned into years. In April 2014 I finally received a call for an interview. I couldn't believe it. I thought for sure no one would hire me after being out of work for so long, and also, I didn't live in the city and this added to the reason why I couldn't find work. Where ever I took a job I always wanted it to be my last. Ever since I was a teenager, I simply wanted to do my own thing. I was creative enough, so why not? I would always tell myself that the system is set up a certain way, and it's a tragic sort of truth that we all must deal with on some level or another. Unless the money is always there somehow.
In early 2016 I left that job, with the financial help of my husband, for a life of creative freedom. Honestly, I was terrified and excited at the same time (Why? Another big issue I was going through was the downfall of the relationship with my husband. This started back in 2014 and continued until early 2018. We finally crossed the threshold together and the past 24 years has come full circle around. Thank goodness!) Was the dream finally happening? Yes, but with some assembly required. However, it wasn't until my last paycheck was gone when I realized it finally came to the point in my life where I will be earning money my own way. But, how was I going to do this? It's not like I had all the time in the world. At first, time was money and money was time. As the days moved on I developed a whole new outlook on this concept. I had no choice.
I spent the following year and a half re-inventing my life. Most of the hours I managed every aspect of the business that would soon become larger than I had ever anticipated. As the months moved along I found myself writing more- Creating newsletters containing short stories and articles that were reflecting my life and the healing work I was coming into and posting relevant and meaningful information on social networks. This eventually led to the writing of my lyric book, and then I reopened the treasure chest that contained a book I started to write back in 2012, Dreamweaver. This book is now finished, and now I'm on to my next book, "Soul Ship: A Personal Account of Embodied Enlightenment. This is true quantum creativity- working on the future, past, and parallel lifetimes at the same time.
However, there was still an ongoing nagging question, how am I going to make money? Where is it going to come from? Even though I had developed all these products and services out of thin air and had a mountain of goodies to share with the world, how was I going to advertise for something like this? I kept saying, "It's not like I sell rugs or something like that". It wasn't a mainstream business, and was the world ready for this? I wasn't one of those "lucky" people who had an inheritance, or rich family members. In fact, I realized there was truly no one that could help me at this point. This was mine and mine alone to come to terms with. I have the support of my loving husband, but business funding and day to day living goods is something that I come up with. He pays the major bills, but not everything. He works long hours, seven days a week earning a wage that is not commendable to the energy he is exerting. We barely have any help, but we are determined to make it work.
The first thing I had to do was to sit down in the middle of myself and count my blessings. It was futile every time I had the thought to look in the job classifieds. I knew deep down that was counteractive and disturbing the already abundant energies working on my behalf, but there was an aspect within me that wanted to play "all options" (like I actually had other options, haha!). I thought I knew gratitude up until now. Most of us live our day to day lives without giving much thought to what comes to us. Because it just does. It's always there when we need it and always has been. Whether it be love, well-being, food, water, money, etc. And that's just it- it always comes to us. That could be argued, but when one looks deeper into their true abundance, everything comes when it is needed. It really does.
I spent time in contemplation with all the blessings in my life that I had not looked at until this point. I always gave my thanks for the Stars at night, the Sun and Moon, the health of my family and friends, my ancestors, the water and food I had, but I was missing gratitude towards myself and all my creations. I wasn't truly feeling into the blessings that were all around me and ultimately the blessing that I am. So, I took the necessary time with myself and all that is to feel into it, to allow myself that freedom to move beyond thoughts of doubt and insecurity, to move beyond emotions and to sense into the "All At Once"; Sense what was already done; What was already here.
The first days are always the hardest days. This was not easy and depending on the day and where I was at consciously. But, with time and a little effort it became easier. As I am writing this story there is an aspect that continues to struggle with the knowing that the money will come. But, I guess in a sense I am choosing to write about this now instead of later, despite myself!
A very wise friend once said... In these times, we have our freedom, that's the good news; And we have our freedom, that's the bad news. There is some assembly required during the integration process of embodied enlightenment. The question is what are you going to do with that freedom? Are you truly ready for that kind of responsibility? Or another way of saying it, do you have the ability to respond when necessary? All life moves in rhythms and patterns and so it goes with our own lives. There comes a time to put forth energy and create what we need for ourselves, but sometimes an imbalance may occur depending on how much energy we expend. In other words, too much effort can interrupt the energies at play. It's almost as though the energetic push or effort comes from fear of not being sure of oneself as a creator being. All energy seeks resolution. Therefore, when one creates for the sake of creating, money will follow or an energetic equivalent.
So, now we can relax into the knowing and truly get on with our creative endeavors. It will feel counter intuitive in the beginning, but when moving with the moment and doing what one loves with blissful passion it begins to feel good. Abundance of any kind is all about energy and feeling good. The state of lack does nothing but drain energy and disturbs the already stable energetics’ at play. Choosing a better thought does help change the emotional state and frees up space to breathe and relax into the sense of knowing that it all works out and all is well.
It's easy to feel as though one has done something wrong if they lack in any area of their life, or they perhaps missed an important message because they may not have been paying attention at the time. This is the classic "damned if you do, and damned if you don't" scenario. This can be frustrating and again will always come full circle around to show the natural cycle of patterns at play. Knowing when to move and when to be still.
There was no cosmic joke, no test, no experiment done. I merely had forgotten that all will be there for me when I need it. That I will have the abundance of time to bring forth my creations and to have the opportunity to simply be with myself without any outside distraction. After all, this was what I was ultimately seeking all these years. So, the question was, what will I do with the abundance of time I have? For those two years there were times when I spent too long in the feeling of lack, even though I had everything I needed. There was an aspect that felt guilty if I spent the hours of the day creating instead of working hard at a job that barely paid the bills and drained my energy for all it was worth. That was the counter intuitive feeling I was having. I couldn't truly relax until I had money coming in, or my perceived concept of an income. Nothing was good enough, and nothing could match that paycheck that came every week even though I only had enough. After all, I have a house and car to pay for that exists in a capitalistic society.
So, now that I had enough time to realize this abundance in my life, I began to use it wisely and there was no going back. I began to notice this was disconcerting and frustrating at times. I would continue to try and go back by applying for jobs through the classifieds, like somehow this balanced out the Universe? I was attempting to utilize what I thought was all my options, even though going back to working those jobs was no longer an option. This was something for the Realized One in me to know, and for Muriel to find out, haha! Seriously, we all had a few laughs about that one! There was no going back. I was at the point of no return. There was allowing and letting all the energy I put forth to come back to me naturally, gracefully, and with patience and gratitude. At the same time knowing all my needs are met.
Shower time is another moment of meditation for me. As I stand quietly and focus on my breath I allow the soothing element of water to calm my mind. The very act of washing the hair and scalp is thought purification. Swirling the shampoo with the fingers into the scalp helps to balance thoughts and remove unwanted stagnant and lingering energies. This in turn clears space for ideas and helps with the flow of creativity. Every act that we do is a creative dance and working with the hair and scalp is essentially a creative thought cleansing art. Yes, we need our daily, weekly, and monthly grooms, but when we look deeper into what occurs at an energetic level it is clear to see this very act is a cleansing meditation practice worth mentioning.
It’s own venom made the snake sick...
During one of my difficult ascension symptom times years ago I was attending a sweat lodge and approached a Dine’ (Navajo) healer whom I was watching from a distance as he magically cured a woman from her migraine headache sufferings. I asked him if he could help with my chronic neck pain that I had been experiencing for many moons. He proceeded with his particular healing ways- brushing a feather along my neck in quick swipes and pulling out whatever I had in there. I entered the lodge pain free. After we had finished with our ceremony we all sat down to enjoy a much deserved feast together.
The Medicine Man approached me and said in an airily daunting way, “whatever you had in your neck it made me sick. Whoever you are hanging around with stay away from them.” Now, I knew in my mind that was a rather harsh thing to hear from someone who was only trying to help. I felt a little guilty, but at the same time I thought, “why would someone who does this work on a regular basis not have the proper protection they need?” I suppose it happens from time to time, as in this case. Anyway, I pondered on that for awhile. Grandmother was over hearing our conversation and she said, “Never apologize.” I felt a little better after she chimed in with her wisdom. As I continued on enjoying my food I thought about what the Medicine Man said about the person I had been exposed to. I had a hunch on who it was, for now. For an entire year I worked on mending that relationship and in the end I had a nightime dream that we both had a baby together and it was toaster, haha! We ended up going our separate ways as what happens in life when lessons are learned and experiences are finished. It wasn’t until a few years later when I truly understood what the Dine’ Healer meant by staying away from whoever it was that was influencing me in this way. I came to the realization that the “other” was none other than myself.
I was surprised and shocked at first, and then had a big “Aha!” moment. “Could I really be the one who was ultimately getting myself sick? How could this be?” It was the way I was thinking, protecting myself, and shutting my heart down. I was creating negative thought patterns and sending them so deeply inside it was creating a self inflicted torture that was silently paralyzing me. Yes, that relationship with that person was causing stress and triggering me to respond in a way that was harming myself. The frustrating thing is that they will never know what I went through. The only one who was burned was me. So, how did I handle this? I sat down in the middle of myself and had a sobering conversation with an aspect who had been hiding. She didn’t realize she was causing harm. Her intentions were always true to protect what she perceived as the enemy outside, or the “wolves at the door.” What does one do when the wolves are at the door? They batter down the hatches, board up the windows, and hide. That is what she did.
A human being is not singular, but a multidimensional ever expanding consciousness with many aspects integrating or not as they move in and out of time and space. Once these aspects are gathered together through the act of self realization they become facets. These facets are the collective “I Am” presence, where wisdom flows at any given moment. There are some aspects who may not feel comfortable to integrate, let them be. A person can realize themselves as God too, AND a human being. This is multi-tasking and being one with multi dimensionality. With that being said, the question that I had for this kind Medicine Man was, “What if that person I should stay away from is me?” As any Master knows, the answer comes before the question is even asked. That protective aspect is no longer hiding. In fact, not only is she not hiding anymore, but she is ecstatic that I have recognized her and gave honor for the only thing she knew to do and that is to protect me.
Mental possession is real and a large portion of the human population suffers from this self induced affliction. They spend most of their time with internal dialog consisting of dilemma's similar to what I went through. Is it there for a reason? Absolutely. It will continue until the human is ready to leave their cage; Until they are ready to stop arguing for their limitations; Until they are ready to see that they are comprised of many aspects whom they created themselves for the experience of existing in duality. Some of these aspects are fine left to themselves as long as the human recognizes and honors them. They are not going to join the party with the rest, but what they will do is leave you alone if you let them be. Like a snake that may come across your path one day.
If you let the snake be, she will let you be.
When describing the searching human in contrast to the realized or awakened human, I feel it is a perfect metaphor to speak of the noble gases vs. the elements within the periodic table of elements.
So, I put this little thing together to entertain myself and hopefully you will get a closer glimpse into my reality and perhaps appreciate my humor. My comments are in parentheses to really bring the point home 😆 Enjoy.
The noble gases are the chemical elements in group 18 of the periodic table... (#9 😆 )
*They are the most stable due to having the maximum number of valence electrons their outer shell can hold. (✨ positive vibrations with more than enough to share, unlike their wobbly elemental neighbors whom are constantly trying to obtain electrons ✨)
* They rarely react with other elements since they are already stable. (✨ balanced in heart and mind, why fight when we can make love? 😆 ✨)
* They all conduct electricity, fluoresce, are odorless and colorless, and are used in many conditions when a stable element is needed to maintain a safe and constant environment. (✨ The peacemakers, and not all are oderless. Some have a nice smell resembling freshly baked cookies 😜 ✨)
This chemical series contains helium, neon, argon, krypton, xenon, and radon, and a few nuts 😋
The noble gases were previously referred to as inert gases, but this term is not strictly accurate because several of them do take part in chemical reactions. (✨ Alone, but not separate, and love to have a damn good time!✨)
To be a Noble Gas is to be Realized!
In all good fun, Many Blessings!
Science info source: https://www.sciencedaily.com/terms/noble_gas.htm
As I set my gaze on the Western horizon I watch as another beautiful day comes to an end. The sky darkens. Clouds change colors with the setting of the Sun and stars appear as speckles of glitter. I turn my head to the Eastern horizon in anticipation of Harvest Moon rise. The moment moves with a few eye blinks and the sky is now dark blue. I look directly above me and notice what looks like a cloud wisp streaking across the sky from north to south, but is none other than one of the arms of the Milky Way Galaxy. I notice a triangular star formation and all the constellations are then before my eyes. But still, no Moon rise. The night becomes quietly still with occasional sounds of crickets or the flight of an owl. I sit, breathe, and wait. My thoughts come and go, but my eyes are still set to the Eastern horizon. Several moments pass and a light appears. Something that is familiar, unlike a street lamp and more like a fire light. The moment of anticipation in seeing the first light of Moon rise on the last day of summer is similar to the Forth of July fireworks! This is time I take to be humble and quiet and to give thanks for all that I have received since Summer Solstice; And to send out my prayers of healing for everything, everybody, including myself.
There is something about the light of Harvest Moon, as it brilliantly glows orange and red. She calls attention to herself and mesmerizes all who catch a glimpse. There is magic in the air as I watch her climb high above the horizon. There are no thoughts. No where to go. No urge to be somewhere. Just simply with myself and the Moon. It’s always in the quiet moments when the answers come; when true insights are clear and strong. It is also these moments when I strongly realize my ancestors are with me.
Sitting by the Moon is as real as it gets. And then it dawns on me that I am happening to life. And this is real. And then another realization comes and I realize none of this is real… and then realization after realization. Things are certainly not what they seem. All of this unfolds sitting by the Moon; very subtle like a candle light, strong. Now I understand what Jack Kerouac meant when he wrote about the Moon… “In some cases the moon is you, in any case the Moon.”
When we are born the first element we are introduced to is water. In The womb we are protected by water. When it is time for us to leave the womb, the next element introduced is air. This is when we take our first breath. We then grow into our Earth form with the energy of fire to move us through life. All four elements, water, air, earth, and fire remain with us throughout life and leave one by one before we make our transition out of the Earth plane.
The four elements make up life as we know it. Mankind has fallen away from the natural world and has lost the connection to Spirit (creator), and has taken the position of creator itself, without the respect for the rest of creation. This play of false power without love has created an imbalance of the four elements, not only within Man, but all of life here on Earth. We did not create the web. We are merely threads in it, and whatever we do to the web we do to ourselves. This is the collective consciousness. Since we can affect the collective with our thoughts and actions, there is also a reciprocal process with everything else.
Water is our emotions. Air is our thoughts. Earth is our physical body. Fire is our energy. What element(s) is out of balance within you?
Think about the region where you live. What element(s) is prominent? I live in Colorado. It’s usually a dry arid region, so fire is one of the prominent elements here. Fire is the only element that cannot be polluted. It purifies everything that it touches. Last year was the beginning of the purification process for this region. And as of a few days ago, it has risen to purify once again. This is what fire does. It cannot be anything else. And to ask or wish for another element to come by and interrupt the process would be a dishonor. All good things happen in all good time. It’s all about timing and if the Earth needs to cleanse herself we must come to understand her needs and honor that. Let Fire do what it does. And TRUST that the rains will come.
If there is a raging hurricane happening around you, sit with a cup of water and pray to it. Decree that what is in for the greatest good. And your greatest good, what yours is may be completely different. So, with all good intention, set your words for the greatest good of all. If there is a tornado happening around you, sit and listen to each in breath and out breath. Pray to your breath and thank it for giving you life. If there is an earthquake happening around you, stay calm, breathe and listen to your heartbeat. Connect your heartbeat with the heartbeat of the Earth and the Sun. It works. If there is a fire happening around you, sit with a candle and pray to fire. Thank it for purifying what needed to be cleansed. Everything is alive. We can have relationships and conversations with the four elements anytime we choose. They will teach us everything that we are lacking to understand.
Most of us know that things are rapidly changing on so many levels, but where we hold our attention will bring understanding more into clarity. We were taught that the Earth is here for our disposal. We generally do not pay attention to the elements until we need them. We are now in a different playing field here on Earth. We can no longer ignore life. Whatever element is out of balance in your region is exactly what kind of weather changes will be expected. We pray for well being, but at the same time we must be humble. Nature has let us live our lives out this far, as a return in kindness we must do the same for her. Let it be.
May your own life continue to expand into a loving compassionate mode of being for yourself and all of life, everywhere.
(Photo Credit: https://www.pinterest.com/pin/92605336059557371)
I was listening to the local classical music station this morning and the announcer came on as always to give a weather update. Temperatures will be dropping significantly tonight and another snow storm is on its way. He then gave a little bit of his thoughts and said, “winter will just not let go this year”. His thought inspired this entry.
It is a natural way to react when you are tired of winter and you just want spring to come on. Complaining does not make the winter blues go away, but somehow it seems to be a comfort at times. We have all done it and many still do continue to complain their lives away. Are we not all searching for that perfect day? That perfect moment when everything just seems to flow? When water flows it follows the path of least resistance. What we resist- persists. If the sun continued to shine day after day without the loving support of the rain, nothing would grow.
We are currently in a global water crisis. When we understand this, it becomes urgent to go forward from this moment and humbly give thanks for the water available to consume today. And, for the water that is coming in other forms, such as snow, hail, or rain. When we give as much as we receive, magic happens. We don’t know all the answers. Science will continue and try to figure out what is happening down here on Earth, but there is something deep inside every one of us that is stirring like a super storm. We intuitively know what is happening at the deepest level of our being. How can we not? Is not everything interconnected? Are we not merely microorganisms on this planet? We have fallen out of balance with the rest of nature and now something is stirring inside.
We must be like a log in the river and flow with the weather changes. Again, what we resist-persists. And so within our own lives, when we experience a shift in our weather we must flow with it or choose suffering. It’s always a choice. Even on a cloudy day the sun is shining!
I would like to conclude with this inspiring story of Buddha’s last words…
When Buddha was on his death bed he noticed his young disciple Ananda was weeping.
'Why are you weeping, Ananda?' he asked.
'Because the light of the world is about to be extinguished and we will be in darkness.'
The Buddha summoned up all his remaining energy and spoke what were to be his final words on earth:
'Ananda, be a light unto yourself.'
It was not too long after Buddha’s passing Ananda reached enlightenment. May your own light continue to shine through the rain, drought, wind, or snow.
The labyrinth is an ancient design found in several cultures worldwide. This pattern can be found on pottery, tiles, and artwork that date back more than four thousand years. Many patterns are based on spirals within a circle, which is based on basic patterns found in nature. However, there are more modern ones that have a square shape with a spiral maze contained inside. They have become more complicated through time and the result has brought the modern maze. Where there are dead ends if you choose the wrong path.
But in their simplicity, throughout time they have been used as a spiritual tool for inner enlightenment, a way to quiet the mind, find insight, self reflection, and to reduce stress. They are a non-denominational, cross-cultural blueprint to balance the body with the mind and the mind with Spirit.
The Medicine Wheel found in the Native American Culture mirrors this design, as a pathway of our life’s journey. The Celts believed the labyrinth as a never ending circle. It is also known as the Kabala in mystical Judaism. However, one commonality many of these cultures have is this: The way in is the way out. Its geometry combines the circle and spiral into a purposeful meandering path. There are no dead ends- only finding ones center and returning to the path with a clear mind and open heart.
As I ponder this simple pattern, quiet my mind, and meditate on it, I realized this is a representation of my journey, of our journey throughout life. Joseph Campbell talked about the Hero’s Journey and how this concept is found in mythology in almost every culture. We are truly the only one that can walk the path of our lives. And as we do, we wake to the understanding that we are the hero of our own life.
As we meander, and illusion comes as feeling lost, and then we continue to move through all the twist and turns of circumstance, we come to a place of inner knowing, the center. The answers to our questions are already inside of us. We know more than we know. But it is not with the mind alone. It is a balancing of mind and heart (intuition, creativity, and the feminine doorway to all that is).
There are some that travel far and wide to reach enlightenment. They search in books, teachers, ministers, Ashrams… everything outside of themselves for the truth. And as they do, the path meanders and they find themselves back to their center, their inner knowing… their truth.
One common premise of most religions and spiritualities throughout the world is that God is within and is closer than your heartbeat. But, we must sit in our silence and quiet our mind. As we do this simple yet very challenging exercise, an epiphany comes.
It is the space between the words...
or the silence between the musical notes where all genius resides. This is where the most beautiful pieces of poetry, musical composition, artwork, and technological inventions have ever come from.
Labyrinths are common places now. They can be found throughout the land in medical centers, parks, churches, schools, prisons, cathedrals and retreat centers as well as in people's backyards. Find one close to you and enjoy the experience of heightened awareness and self exploration.
And if you are really creative, build one where you live. This can be done as a community project and a place that can be enjoyed as a sacred space for all who come your way!
Remember… The way in is the way out.
Many Blessings are your journey!
Blog/Musings by Muriel Shickman
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