It’s easy to feel like you are going crazy when you come into your realization, because your perception of reality changes, and your relationship with your mind, thoughts, and emotions all change. Your own identity breaks down and how others see you begins to change and it feels as if the ground beneath was ripped apart. Then, all the excuses come up such as having mental illness in the family, your mother or father was crazy so now it has been passed down to you through the DNA. Or you took too many drugs and hurt your brain. You may have your own excuses that come up that are unique but follows the same pattern of limited explanations.
Maybe you are crazy, but let’s go deeper and take a look below the surface…
Many of the so called “symptoms” of mental illnesses such as psychosis or *schizophrenia are displayed and are common experiences during the process of enlightenment. Nothing like this has come before, so there is nothing else to compare it to. The mind can only find the answers within its own confine, and after that it will make you feel like you are losing it. Well, because you are. It’s more like you are loosening up the stronghold over your mind and thoughts, and when that occurs you fall out of what is considered the range of normalcy. You are “splitting apart” or confronted with your different aspects and opening up to all of who you are.
Psychology tells us that the mental disorder of schizophrenia is characterized by abnormal behavior, strange speech, decreased ability to understand reality, false beliefs, unclear or confused thinking, hearing voices that do not exist, reduced social engagement and emotional expression, lack of motivation, anxiety, depression, and substance use disorder. The list goes on. If you look at most of these symptoms, they are commonly experienced when realizing the self and all of who you are.
Western cultures tend to look at anything they do not understand that resides outside the box of science and psychology as crazy. There is no such thing as a crazy person in indigenous cultures. So, what happened with this split in understanding? They do not have mental institutions or doctors for such a thing, but what they do is integrate these people into the community. They understand if someone is displaying themselves as different and unique from the rest of the tribe, this is their gift. It is not a curse, and something to fix, and certainly not something to suppress with drugs. If someone gets violent the community works with them and assists to bringing them to a state of well being again.
The gift can also come as being a shaman. This individual works with unseen forces which is out of the jurisdiction of western science understanding. In the indigenous communities it’s recognized, honored, acted upon, and integrated. Science is simply unable to help these people because they do not understand consciousness and energy, so they recommend endless counseling sessions and drugs to bring them back to a state of “normal”. It’s a constant loop of suppression that will never be resolved with this way of thinking, and limited understanding.
So, I would be clinically diagnosed with psychosis to the science community because I work with the unseen forces as a shaman and also someone who has come into self-realization. But the thing is, crazy or not, the techniques that I utilize work. Years of psychotherapy can be taken care of in a session or two. It took me more than a year to realize all of this. I was one of those who happened to be born to a “crazy” family, so it was easy for me to go there in my mind about it before I understood the dynamics. It’s a perfect recipe for coming into realization.
Everybody has their own unique way of expressing all of who they are. The symptoms of coming undone at the core of your being will mimic what science calls as crazy. When you go through the “dark night of the soul”, you are recognizing and integrating so many aspects and parts of yourself that you didn’t see before. You literally turn into a quaking mess. And while all of this is going on your relationships start changing, and how you lived your life. You are so busy trying to get through each hour of the day while adjusting to this new way of living.
So, can you see there is such a fine line between realization and crazy? Are people afraid of losing their minds? Yes. Why? Because they are afraid of who they are behind their mask of identity. They are holding onto life and the normal way of living, a singular identity, following the same old patterns generation after generation. This is the matrix. I used to say they are afraid of their own power, but this has nothing to do with power and everything to do with realizing how enormous they are.
“Where are my wings? I’ve spent so long searching for the answers to my soul. I climbed a mountain and reached the heights. I couldn’t fly, so I walked back down instead.” Muriel spent too long contemplating these words to herself.
A loving voice suddenly came from the depth of her being,
“You waited until the time was right. It was always about the timing. You never gave up, although there were moments when you came close.”
“Who is this?” Muriel asked. This voice sounded different. It wasn’t the regular voice that she heard all the time coming from her brain.
“I am you, or it’s more like we are you. I am your higher self or master self. You knew somewhere inside this was going to happen one day. Like you said, with all your searching and reaching to the heights of your being you never thought you could fly. You would’ve continued to sit there in lotus position saying “om mani padme hum” lifetime after lifetime. We are here to tell you that you are the designated driver for this entire operation. You will listen to your internal compass and eventually know to trust this voice.”
Muriel sat there for a while as we listened to her struggles and resistance to what is inevitable. She knew she had to move on from the limited job she was working and strengthen her healing practice. The time had arrived where she could finally manifest what she wanted for herself, but there were a few things that she had to go through first.
She had to allow the process of becoming more than human and navigate this way while still living her life. But what she will come to find out is that her life eventually expands into a much livelier, calmer, and loving way of being. All her dreams come true…
What does it mean to be more than human?
One is no longer confined to structures, beliefs, and limitations. There are no more struggles or searching for truth. The questions of the what, when, where, how, and why fall away. There are no more power games or struggle to control anything. One no longer falls into someone’s web as a victim. The aging process slows down. The light body merges with the physical body and sickness diminishes and becomes obsolete. Being in the world, but not of the world. No longer suffering with the ills of the world. Death is no longer feared, and one does not leave their body the traditional way. The love for the self and others intensifies. Light shines forth so brightly that the creative energies are free to expand as they will. One is a sovereign and wise being who takes full responsibility for everything that happens to them. To understand and hold compassion for the human with all its beauty, wonder, struggles, and frailties. Understanding one’s multidimensionality, embracing all the aspects from countless lifetimes and this one too. Going where most humans fear to go, the places that scare them. To know that evil does not exist, only human psychopaths and mischievous spirits that don’t have bodies. All relationships change, including leaving the human biology with all its limitations and baggage. One is no longer confined to mass consciousness and can be sovereign within their own safe space. The knowing of being God while having a human experience...
But, before one gets to experience all of this, there is an integration period when all hell breaks loose.
It gets more and more difficult to do everyday activities. Life becomes boring, and you loose touch with yourself and eventually everyone around you. You can’t understand why things are not working anymore. You feel lonelier around others than you do when you are by yourself. You don’t fit in, and don’t really care. The one thing that holds you together is that you have enough wisdom stored up that at some point you will access it when you can’t take it anymore. Even daily activities such as starting the day, going to the bathroom, drinking water, eating food, all these things you become sensitive to.
Then the senses start reeling.
You start hearing ringing tones in the ears, and it’s not because you are losing your hearing. Things appear to you that were always there, but you don’t notice until now. Your sense of smell, the taste of food or drink, your sensitivity to energy all start changing, expanding, and morphing. You experience what is called “ascension symptoms” and they range from A-Z. There are countless ways the body reacts to frequency upgrades, and not everyone experiences it the same way. It can be both an arduous and elating process. It does become easier eventually, and worth it once one realizes they created the opportunity and are now taking full responsibility for their experiences.
This was the path Muriel had chosen for herself. To become the shining star she always felt herself to be. Was it going to be difficult? Yes, many challenges…but she was not alone, and this was what she was remembering and allowing herself to understand. The Golden Age is within...
(I began writing this book shortly after publishing my first one on January 1st this year, and have been going strong ever since. There is no method to my writing madness with this project as I am finding myself jumping all over the place, but it is coming together nicely and at a gentle pace. After eleven months, I am now about 190 pages in and would like to share with you an unedited excerpt from the second story "Rising Up and Becoming More than Human" in chapter 5. If you like what you read here and would like to support my endeavors, visit my books page)
When I speak about dimensions I often see people’s eyes glaze over and it is apparent this topic is either way beyond their understanding, or they simply are not interested. This depends of course on the persons consciousness whom I am addressing, but for the most part many are in the dark about what a dimension is and the nature of reality---it is not a fixed state, not even close. But we have managed to live life on Earth for a long time with a limited understanding. It’s as if we accepted things as they are and settled down. The “life is hard” philosophy and countless other limitations have been deeply embedded in our cells.
We look out at the landscape and see the ground, the trees, the sky. All of that is there, nothing has changed. The Sun comes up and goes down. There are stormy days and calm days. This is how it is here. Very structural. Right or wrong, left or right, side to side, up and down, this way or no way at all… and so on. This energetic structure is the third dimension. Very rigid and narrow. However, there are many dimensions and like the keys on the piano each has its own frequency and vibration. If there is an increase or decrease in frequency physicality responds, and like we are seeing with the changes in climate and in human consciousness, our third dimensional existence is changing, and we are no longer living strictly living within that dimension. We are teetering between several, and some of us are expanding beyond this.
A dimension is not a place way over there or away from here. All dimensions exist here and now. You can visualize an apartment building with many floors. The floors are not separate within their own building, no. They exist as one. What I find interesting is that humanity has created another dimension without realizing. Look at the amazing creation of the Internet. An inter-dimensional world created by humans. You can’t see it when you look out at the landscape. It’s not visible to wildlife, plants, animals, trees, the water…It’s man-made for man. But, like the old saying goes “as within so without, so without as within”.
The Internet is a dimension in itself. It has an energetic structural form for creativity to play itself out. You could almost say that it is an entry port connecting all dimensions, at least has the potential. Regardless, it has changed how we interact and our ability to communicate and is essentially a prehistoric form of time travel. When we stop to realize what we are all co-creating with the advent of the internet we gain a better understanding of what dimensions are, and how physicality plays itself out within an inter-dimensional reality.
Life as we know it and our understanding of ourselves and creation has been a mystery up to this point. It’s not that we won’t be surprised by things to come, but our actual comprehension of who we are--- why, how, when, where, and what will not be a mystery. Imagine the spaciousness around that notion, and what the individual will be able to accomplish within themselves and their outer world when they finally know who they are and what happened here on Earth. They will also come to find out that it was just a story, and the story is all changing.
There was a technology that came out that shifted everything. We now live in two worlds. Our outer world everyday existence intermingled with nature, and our inner world of digital transactions. How will the new human beings (AI) respond?
Blog/Musings by Muriel Shickman
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